269.0

Holy. Crap.

SERIOUSLY HOLY CRAP! I lost 5.2 pounds this week for a total of 16.1 in a little over 3 weeks! This is officially more weight lost than the last two times I “dieted” combined.

We talked in our class today about self-affirmation and self-confidence. People are always so surprised when I tell them that I’m not very confident. Sure, I can teach to a room full of kids, or jump off the high dive at camp, but when asked about myself, I’m pretty negative.

I’m working on it, and I realized today in the context of this class how much something a friend of mine said really resonated with me. (Did that sentence make ANY sense?)

When I first went to the doctor and saw that my weight was as high as it had ever been, I said to a friend that I felt like a “big fat failure.” Her response? “Hey, be nice to my friend!”

She wouldn’t have talked about me that way, and I wouldn’t have talked about her that way…why was I being so mean to myself?? I’m working on being nicer to myself… it’s not easy, but I’m trying.

We talked about other positive self-affirmations that we can have on repeat while we’re in the program. Mine was this:

I may not be perfect at this… but starting and trying is half the battle.