Week 7: Day 7

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Down another pound and a half! TWENTY EIGHT POUNDS TOTAL!!!

I’m averaging 4 pounds a week, which is above average. I’ve never EVER been an above-average weight loser.

We had a really interesting class today about “stick with it-ness” and I shared with the class about how this all started out as a “have to” endeavor. I had to lose weight to be healthier, to get in a good place to start a family, get my cholesterol down, etc.

And then I was able to buy a pair of pants off the rack at Old Navy. And it’s turned into a “want to” thing. The health stuff is amazing, but honestly, the superficial stuff is great too, and really a phenomenal motivator.

A friend at work today gave me a huge hug and told me she’s proud of me. THAT meant a lot. And so did the number on the scale, but that’s just quantitative proof that what I’m doing is working. I prefer the qualitative proof…the comments, the smaller clothes, the feeling better.

And can you all tell I’m in a data-driven class for grad school? Qualitative and quantitative? Who am I?

Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday…it’s been a LONG week!

Week 7: Days 5-6 (The Truth)

I had a friend ask me yesterday if this whole OptiFast thing was as easy as I’ve made it seem here on my little blog.

The truth? NO WAY.

Absolutely, no freaking way is this easy. I mean, sure, I don’t have to plan a darn thing, everything is more or less done for me, I have a built in support system, great doctors and nurses at the weight loss clinic, and the biggest thing is that I have a MAJOR “wanna” to get this done. It’s like in “Stand and Deliver”… you have to have the GANAS. That I have.

But, seriously, I miss cooking. I miss the stress relief after a long day of chopping up vegetables and stabbing garlic cloves into a roast. I miss the smells in the house, i miss roasting vegetables, I miss grilling and even grocery shopping. I miss chewing. I get one bar (maybe two) a day, and chewing gum isn’t the same. I miss going out to eat (not the food so much, but the keeping each other company and talking thing). I miss eating things that aren’t sweet. Breakfast is sweet, lunch is sweet, my snacks are sweet… I have one bowl of soup a day that’s not sweet. I’d still hurt someone for some salmon sashimi, or hell, a glass of wine.

But here’s the thing: the fact that I feel so incredibly great, and for the first time in years I’m losing weight without it being a constant conversation in my head.

“What are we doing for lunch? I don’t know, what are we doing for lunch? I had oatmeal for breakfast which was this many points/calories/units/whatevers so for lunch it needs to be this many points/calories/units/whatevers, and I know that dinner is this many…”

HOLY CRAP it was exhausting. Everything was food. I suddenly have this extra time and energy that isn’t revolving around food. I have 10 minion hats to crochet, and i’m not even concerned about my grad school work.

So is this easy? No. But is it worth it? Absolutely. I figured out today that I can no longer “belly bump” the back gate open. THAT is worth it.

And now, your dose of Zooey Kitten:

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Week 7: Days 2-4

Goodness, I didn’t even realize that I hadn’t written since Friday evening! Time’s fun when you’re having flies, right? (My favorite Kermit the Frog quote)

Today was an interesting day. I took a personal day today to catch up on a project that I’d been sort of kind of working on for months. I’m really lucky that I have a great teammate who co-teaches with me, so sub plans were extremely simple. Anyway, I was home all day. It would’ve been a perfect opportunity, in the past, to treat myself to a big breakfast, Jimmy John’s for lunch, and a decadent dinner because, you know, I had the time.

Instead, I stayed on plan, and my big “splurge” for the day was that I opened a new bottle of sugar-free syrup (salted caramel, super delicious) and made a blended shake for breakfast. And I was able to eat at the 3 hour mark instead of when I had time. It was lovely.

Then I hit a roadblock: my new iMovie update made every single last clip I imported turn a lovely shade of green when it was exported. It took me half of my day to figure it out, and the other half to let the darn thing re-update. I wanted to throw my beloved Mac across the room. But I didn’t I only got about a third of the project done…but I know what I’m doing now. And I didn’t stress eat! BAM!

Week 7: Day 1 (Small Goals)

It’s really amazing to me how second nature this whole “eating only Optifast products” thing has gotten. I look forward to my morning shake (even though it’s getting cold out and the whole frozen beverage thing might not be the best idea soon.) and I really enjoy my evening soup. It’s kind of strange though. I miss cooking: the preparation, the chopping, the shopping… but not so much the eating. It’s weird.

I’ve been thinking a lot about goals too. I get so focused on the number that I’m hoping to hit someday soon, that I lose track of the smaller goals I’m hoping to hit. I’m not talking about numbers here either. This is something that an old Weight Watchers leader once asked us to do, and I’m doing it again, right here, right now:

  • Shop at Banana Republic again
  • Fit into clothes at Lululemon
  • See my collarbones and jaw bones
  • Wear heels for longer than a couple hours
  • Be satisfied with a small plate of food, instead of a mountain
  • Be able to run up the stairs without being winded (really close to that one!)
  • Buy any pair of glasses from Warby Parker without worrying about how wide they are.
  • Run the PanCan 5K
  • Wear a belt

I’ll add more as I think of them. I think this is a great start!

Week 6: Days 6 & 7

I told you I was tired.

So tired, in fact, that I went to bed without doing much of anything last night. My students will have to wait for their graded papers. Sorry guys.

I weighed in today too…

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I lost another 1.1 pounds this week.

I’m not going to lie, I’m a little disappointed. I know in my rational head that losing over a pound in a week is good and healthy. But, after 6 weeks of losing about 5 pounds a week, seeing that little number was a bit disconcerting.

But I DID lose weight. And I’ve lost over 26 pounds in just over 6 weeks. That’s INSANE. And AMAZING. It’s time to actually start exercising though, which I’ve been dreading. Any insight on a good treadmill for the house?

Well, my grad school work is done for the night, so I’m signing off to be unproductive now. I can’t believe that I’m starting my 7th week of this program. I honestly was unsure if I’d make it this far…

Week 5: Day 7 (Long Days)

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Another 5.3 pounds gone in another week. I could really get used to these results!

Results are really what have kept me going, especially the last few days. Working until 8 p.m. when my normal bedtime is around 9 has put a damper in my regular schedule. Luckily, I managed to time my eating so that I could still have soup when I got home, which makes it so I know that it’s a) night time and b) time to stop eating for the day.

Today’s weigh in brought a few other things as well! I hit my first 25 pounds gone, which means I’m rewarding myself with a haircut at the fancy salon tomorrow! I’ll make sure to post a photo. It also marks the point where I “only” have 100 pounds to lose until I hit the “healthy” BMI range. I also had blood work done, so I’ll be really curious to see if there are results there as well.

I noticed today, while getting dressed, that there are a few places where I used to have rolls, or “squish” as I call it, that I no longer do. The small of my back, for one, my shoulders are narrower, and I could, for the first time, sit at a student’s desk during a parent-teacher conference today. It was lovely.

And, in honor of #throwbackthursday and the fact that my sister is going to Paris… a photo of us at 5 and 1 (I’m the big sister!)

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Week 5: Day 5

Well, a student noticed today.

She came up to me, and said “hey, Mrs. R… can I ask you something?”

I never worry when they say that. Usually it’s a silly question like “Can I go to the bathroom?” or “Um, do you have a pencil?” Sometimes, it’s a girl asking me an absolutely mortifying question also involving going to the bathroom but having to stop at their locker first.

So anyway, this sweet girl, an 8th grader, came up to me today and said “I don’t want you to get mad, but have you lost weight? Not that you looked bad before, at all, but I mean, you look great!”

A 13-year-old-girl who already has a 99% in my class said she could tell I’ve lost weight. It reminds me of that scene in Sex and the City when Samantha is talking to Smith. She says “First the gays, then the girls, then the world.”

For me, first it was my friends. They noticed that I was working at it, that my clothes fit better, that my face looked deflated. Then the students. Pretty soon, the world!!!

I’ve got this ridiculously long day tomorrow…a nearly full day of school, plus 3 hours of parent-teacher conferences from 5-8 p.m.

Oy vey.

Week 5: Day 1 (With a BANG)

(Ok, I really need to double check that my Friday posts actually post…written last night)

The news of the fact that I’m down almost 20 pounds in 4 weeks was exactly what I needed to keep motivated this morning. I woke up raring to go, and even spent some extra time curling my hair to look pretty for picture retakes. I’ll be curious to see the difference between my two photos, and the difference between today’s photo and what I may look like when they come in!

Other things learned today:

  • Having an upset stomach on this plan is no picnic.
  • Cramps still suck.
  • Torani sugar-free brown sugar cinnamon syrup is disgusting.
  • taking photos of a sweet 9 month old baby makes me want one. Hence this whole crazy weight loss plan. Seriously, look how sweet he is!

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So, my week 5 has started out with a bang! Still motivated, feeling better, looking better…and people are starting to notice…I swear that’s the best motivator!

Week 4: Day 7 (So close, yet so far)

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Again I say, HOLY CRAP!!! I lost 3.8 pounds for a total of 19.9 in 4 weeks. I really should’ve gone to the bathroom again to hit that 20 lb. mark, but at least I know I’ll hit it next week!

I’m really really trying to not get hung up on how far I still have to go in this weight loss journey. If I continue losing at this rate (which will likely NOT happen, it’s just the way it is) I’ve got at least 20 MORE weeks to go. I know that I won’t lose at this rate, and will likely have at least a year.

At least.

I have 120 pounds left to go.

But I’m not going to focus on that…

I’m going to focus on the fact that 4 weeks ago, I had 140 pounds to lose. And taking that first step is harder than the whole journey.

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Week 4: Day 5 (I want steak)

Yep, I want steak.

Or roasted chicken.

Or a Chipotle burrito bowl with spicy salsa.

I really just want to CHEW something.

They warned me this would happen… so I had 2 bars today instead of my usual 1. It helped a bit.

I think it’s funny that what I’m craving is chewy protein and not what I normally crave when I’m dieting. Normally I want macaroni and cheese (I’d settle for cheese). Or pizza (again…cheese). Or pasta bolognese (I’d love just a bowl of the sauce).

Everything, with the exception of my one bowl of soup a day, is sweet. The shakes are sweet, the bars are sweet, the other shakes are sweet… I can change the type of sweet, or amount of sweet, but it’s sweet.

Nice roasted chicken with some fresh veggies would be perfectly lovely. Or some grilled salmon on a salad…

And I’ve already decided that the FIRST thing I’m cooking when I’m back on solid food is my favorite bolognese sauce atop spaghetti squash. Or polenta. Yep. That’ll do.

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